Startup for several years, but little to show for it. Co founders left, and I have been alone for nearly a year. The product is in beta, and I have not made any publicty. My infrastructure is being used by some customers. Revenue is falling again. No time and energy left to grow it currently.
I have recently started working in a Coworking space. At least I am building up a routine, and not procrastinating that much. But who knows, I have been here for only three days now. Atmosphere is nice though, and this will probably help. Costs have increased in 200$/month. Scratch that: no more coffee shops, so saving on coffee and sitting comfortably now.
I am feeling very depressed. The only thing that motivates me is doing sport, and playing computer games.
I am sleeping a lot, in an unhealthy way: I go to bed relatively early, read my tablet, watch a video, generally lose time, unable to sleep. I watch too many movies, without interest, just killing time. I have not read a book in ages. In the morning I do not feel like standing up, but I still manage most of the time to be on my feet before eight.
I am not going out very often, but if I do, old patterns emerge, and I drink too much. I am not that young anymore, so that burns a lot of energy. I have never had alcohol problems, but this is dangerous in my situation. I should be careful.
Getting married next year, but not in the mood. My girlfriend is probably very unhappy, but does not say anything.
Not very keen on hanging around with people currently, but I still have some friends.
I am living a multiple failure: startup failure together with midlife crisis, and no children, which is something I miss.
Money is fortunately not a problem, but I am becoming unemployable, and burned-out. Going back to the employee / consultant frigthens me. I love the freedom I have. I want so much for my startup to succeed ... It is my only priority. I do not want to give up.
Any feedback is very much welcome.
I wish I had more to say that'll be helpful. Maybe start making peace with the possibility that your venture is failing.