> But every night, the emptiness of this endless cycle hits me and it feels so paradoxically heavy, like an insurmountable gravitational pull into the void [...] The advice I've read concerning this sort of disillusionment boils down to making friends/establishing a sense of connection to the world, and having a sense of personal direction.
I'm also quickly approaching thirty as a remote-working dev, have a nice social life + an amazing GF, but existential dread is still an issue now and then :)
Improving your social life is generally a good idea, but to me it seems that fundamental problem is a lack of meaning, purpose and direction.
Some people are merrily living their lives and never face the abyss of „what's the point of all of this”. Apparently you're not one of them, so might need to find purpose in order to achieve a reasonable level of satisfaction in life.
The elephant in the room: Unless you are convinced that every human life (including yours) or at least humanity at whole is inherently valuable, there really is no point in all of this. Especially when considering all the looming crises humanity is facing. Hedonism isn't fulfilling, as you've noticed yourself.
Go take a deep dive into philosophy, religion, psychology. Figure out what you want in life and work towards it.
I can very much recommend listening to/reading Jordan Peterson. Helped me a lot over the past years. I'm currently reading Carl Jung about yearning as a fundamental condition of life and its relation to creativity.
I'm also quickly approaching thirty as a remote-working dev, have a nice social life + an amazing GF, but existential dread is still an issue now and then :)
Improving your social life is generally a good idea, but to me it seems that fundamental problem is a lack of meaning, purpose and direction.
Some people are merrily living their lives and never face the abyss of „what's the point of all of this”. Apparently you're not one of them, so might need to find purpose in order to achieve a reasonable level of satisfaction in life.
The elephant in the room: Unless you are convinced that every human life (including yours) or at least humanity at whole is inherently valuable, there really is no point in all of this. Especially when considering all the looming crises humanity is facing. Hedonism isn't fulfilling, as you've noticed yourself.
Go take a deep dive into philosophy, religion, psychology. Figure out what you want in life and work towards it.
I can very much recommend listening to/reading Jordan Peterson. Helped me a lot over the past years. I'm currently reading Carl Jung about yearning as a fundamental condition of life and its relation to creativity.