You aren't ANYTHING. You are not your job or your skills.
Trust your gut. You've been busy with other things, and you have fallen behind as a developer. That doesn't mean you are worthless or unable to improve again. It just means you need to be humble and have a plan to improve as a coder.
The only way to improve consistently I have seen is to seek feedback from peers. Seek out a trusted colleague and ask to pair program for a while. Submit PRs early and often, and get early feedback.
I know a lot of people who would never admit they are struggling, and just say everyone else is the problem.
Trust your gut. You've been busy with other things, and you have fallen behind as a developer. That doesn't mean you are worthless or unable to improve again. It just means you need to be humble and have a plan to improve as a coder.
The only way to improve consistently I have seen is to seek feedback from peers. Seek out a trusted colleague and ask to pair program for a while. Submit PRs early and often, and get early feedback.
I know a lot of people who would never admit they are struggling, and just say everyone else is the problem.