> Maybe an extended vacation is really what I need to do.
100% adding a +1 here that this sounds like the right thing to do to start.
> it still just eats at me though
To me, this stands out. I think it's important to answer the "why" here at some point, whether that be before/during/after an extended break. Some potential things to investigate:
- Maybe the company is respectful, but the environment is still too critical / focused on bettering code constantly rather than focusing on product.
- Maybe there's too much focus on code quality over product generally, to the point that it's not helpful.
- Maybe it's not actually as respectful and understanding as you originally thought.
- Maybe the way it's delivered works for others but you need a different format and can communicate that need to others.
- Maybe the feedback coming from people below you (reading into "on a podium") is different than from peers and you're internalizing it.
Whatever it is, I hope a break helps you reset and gives you space to figure it out!
100% adding a +1 here that this sounds like the right thing to do to start.
> it still just eats at me though
To me, this stands out. I think it's important to answer the "why" here at some point, whether that be before/during/after an extended break. Some potential things to investigate:
- Maybe the company is respectful, but the environment is still too critical / focused on bettering code constantly rather than focusing on product.
- Maybe there's too much focus on code quality over product generally, to the point that it's not helpful.
- Maybe it's not actually as respectful and understanding as you originally thought.
- Maybe the way it's delivered works for others but you need a different format and can communicate that need to others.
- Maybe the feedback coming from people below you (reading into "on a podium") is different than from peers and you're internalizing it.
Whatever it is, I hope a break helps you reset and gives you space to figure it out!