> find a job where you care about the company and product
I'm an average person. I'm not qualified for those roles. I make websites in WordPress and I now hate the process of writing code of any flavour with such passion I'll take anything else that pays more. I don't have the capacity to learn some new thing on the off chance I go work somewhere that isn't just the same old.
Also I now work for a small indie company for the very reason of having more responsibility and purpose. You know what that led to recently? I moved all our kit to managed hosting in case I went through with offing myself.
It's burnout, not a bad day. I'd love to just take some time off all willy nillily as you say but that would result in a performance improvement plan and an eventual firing, which I can't afford right now.
I'd fucking love to go back to Sysadmin work but I've been out so long everything's gone cloudy - again, not qualified.
All these excuses and more in your nearest person with burnout :)
Man it sounds like you have some deeper issues and I hope you can find more meaning in life in general, but being a WordPress admin would probably drive most of us to the brink. Probably one of the most tedious and banal jobs in tech.
Why not start learning more languages and whatnot? What do you mean you don't have the capacity? I was a PHP dev back in the day and progressed to things like Python/Django, but there's a whole world of resources that are accessible to you as an existing coder if you wanted to skill up and take it to the next level. There were points in the last few years I was bored of coding and rarely did it outside of my work hours. Recently I started looking at Rust and it dazzled me into being excited again.
I dunno if you'll ever see this but if you do thank you. Calling it out has put it in focus, today I'm trying to appreciate all of the stuff I have done
For instance the CI/CD I set up is f-in cool how it just works. I'll start from there.
I'm an average person. I'm not qualified for those roles. I make websites in WordPress and I now hate the process of writing code of any flavour with such passion I'll take anything else that pays more. I don't have the capacity to learn some new thing on the off chance I go work somewhere that isn't just the same old.
Also I now work for a small indie company for the very reason of having more responsibility and purpose. You know what that led to recently? I moved all our kit to managed hosting in case I went through with offing myself.
It's burnout, not a bad day. I'd love to just take some time off all willy nillily as you say but that would result in a performance improvement plan and an eventual firing, which I can't afford right now.
I'd fucking love to go back to Sysadmin work but I've been out so long everything's gone cloudy - again, not qualified.
All these excuses and more in your nearest person with burnout :)