This may provide some ideas to help you beat it...
"6 Strategies That Science Actually Shows Are Effective For Depression" https://www.forbes.com/sites/alicegwalton/2017/06/15/the-str...
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If not consider getting a dog (or other pet) and regularly going into parks with it.
I’d echo this - you’re not alone. Talk to someone who you can lean on. If not, may I suggest online therapy like betterhelp.com.
I have had a positive experience with a no judgement conversation with a wonderful listener who I can (and continue to) lean on when things are falling apart.
unfortunately it's not available in my region. nor I have the time. I am doing university and a full time job at the same time while managing not to fall apart
If not consider getting a dog (or other pet) and regularly going into parks with it.