I was diagnosed with cancer in 2013. I had many surgeries, lots of radiation therapy, and like the woman in "Brazil", my complications developed complications. I feel I received excellent care, and I have had no tumors spotted in 8-ish years. But I've been in pain every waking hour of every day since May 16th 2013. Sometimes the pain isn't too bad, sometimes I lie in bed, legs rigid with pain, and scream. If I get a serious recurrence of my cancer, or a new cancer, I'm going to blow my brains out. I can't conceive of anything occurring in my future that would make it worth going through a multi-year episode of surgeries and other aggressive cancer treatments again.
