Probably this, where she is discussing her first memories on a podcast:
> Annie then basically proceeds to mention that “panic attack” doesn’t quite feel like her first memory, but doesn’t decisively settle on a “first memory.” She concludes the article: “TBD on the first memory of that history. Here’s to exploring.”
> This becomes relevant later on, as Annie ends up remembering an earlier memory than her panic attacks—Sam sexually assaulting her.
Her presentation is poor, but it seems pretty clear something terrible happened to her and was invalidated. Her pattern of behavior is consistent with others with major childhood traumas. Most people are not having panic attacks and thinking of killing themselves before elementary school.
Her pattern of behaviour is also consistent with the bpd, which frequently involve delusions of persecution. Suicidal ideation and severe anxiety are unfortunately not rare in adolescence either, and certainly don't evidence sexual abuse - when not reported or remembered at the time.
Not to mention the well-established phenomenon of repressing memories of traumatic events, as well as the general memory impairment effects of chronic stress.
Is your position then that if a pre-adolescent child does not immediately report abuse with objective evidence and coherent testimony that we can only conclude nothing happened?
> Annie then basically proceeds to mention that “panic attack” doesn’t quite feel like her first memory, but doesn’t decisively settle on a “first memory.” She concludes the article: “TBD on the first memory of that history. Here’s to exploring.”
> This becomes relevant later on, as Annie ends up remembering an earlier memory than her panic attacks—Sam sexually assaulting her.
Her presentation is poor, but it seems pretty clear something terrible happened to her and was invalidated. Her pattern of behavior is consistent with others with major childhood traumas. Most people are not having panic attacks and thinking of killing themselves before elementary school.