"When something doesn't grab me, it takes enormous effort to maintain focus. It's not that other distractions are just so incredibly moving that they take my focus away. Rather, it's that it's physically difficult if not painful to focus on the thing that evades my attention, so by comparison, anything else is better."
Sounds like me trying to do geometry proofs homework in my freshman year of high school. I wanted to cry it felt so shitty forcing myself to do it. Eventually, I just stopped. Didn't help my teacher was insane and demanded we make copies of our work using carbon paper in the year of our lord 2005 and would grade you down if you turned in something off a copier/scanner. More tedium on top of dreadful tedium.
Sounds like me trying to do geometry proofs homework in my freshman year of high school. I wanted to cry it felt so shitty forcing myself to do it. Eventually, I just stopped. Didn't help my teacher was insane and demanded we make copies of our work using carbon paper in the year of our lord 2005 and would grade you down if you turned in something off a copier/scanner. More tedium on top of dreadful tedium.