This strikes home for me. The witty jokes I make to isolate myself from a world I often can make no sense of. The isolation that hides insecurities and the lack of courage to take leaps of faith and participate in an imperfect society rather than hang at the periphery and judge it.
Whatever the reasons/excuses - genetics, upbringing, current social trends towards individualism, whatever - I can find no solution though. Whenever I force myself to get involved I end up disilusioned and eventually angry. Impotence describes it perfectly.
So in the end one must asume that whatever is lacking, be it wisdom or faith, or humblesness, it really is lacking and preventing me from making any significant impact. And being only clever is similar to being a clown.
Whatever the reasons/excuses - genetics, upbringing, current social trends towards individualism, whatever - I can find no solution though. Whenever I force myself to get involved I end up disilusioned and eventually angry. Impotence describes it perfectly.
So in the end one must asume that whatever is lacking, be it wisdom or faith, or humblesness, it really is lacking and preventing me from making any significant impact. And being only clever is similar to being a clown.