If I sleep consistently, I become too stable for my young self to be comfortable with. It feels like I'm killing my soul in slavery to my bodily needs.
The best solution I've found is having a little coffee in the evenings on the weekend. Stupid, but I feel alive again.
When I get enough sleep my mind goes in overdrive and I'm very restless. Yet when I don't get enough sleep, I feel depressed because I lack the willpower to not spend hours browsing or gaming (and lose more sleep).
I want to combat the restlesness by forcing myself to do physical exercise (running, doing stuff in the garden,...) and meditating. But it's hard to keep up and not fall back into a downward cycle of sleeping less and a numbing feeling of depression.
Author, who is a literary person, struggles with insomnia over 15 years. They try many different remedies over the years, and finally realize success with the antidepressant trazodone.
The best solution I've found is having a little coffee in the evenings on the weekend. Stupid, but I feel alive again.