I am absolutely not like this. I smoked a few times in high school >10 years ago, because I'm from a country basically everyone smokes. I didn't have the need or want to have another cigarette after high school because it wasn't as socially acceptable in communities I lived in. So I lost the interest. I never found it hard, nor ever found myself appealed to cigarettes after high school.
I started smoking at the age of 23, so I am probably much more stupid than the average smoker who started or tried it first time in high school.
I immediately lost interest, it's a terrible habit, I never smoked in the morning, rarely during the day, only at night when I'm out with other people, but I keep going back because... I don't even know why.
One thing is sure, if I have something meaningful to do I don't even think about cigarettes.
So in my case boredom is probably the main drive.
Other people might have other reasons to do it.
But it's absolutely something that every smoker should fight as hard as they can, because nothing good can come out of it.
One thing that really helped me to reduce my addiction to just 1 or 2 cigarettes a day has been avoiding "the bad ones".
Those cigarettes that you smoke knowing you won't even enjoy them.
I smoked one after dinner and one after a drink and that was enough.
If you start associating the habit of lighting up one after everyday activities - a coffee, waiting for someone or something, watching a movie, drinking a beer - that's when you are screwed and should understand you're smoking too much.
Easier said than done, I know, but it worked on me until I let it win again.
