My daily night routine includes looking at a picture of dinosaurs, and a high resolution picture of the hubble telescope[1] and realize that there is something that drove the making of all of this, the process of evolving, of galaxies, bacteries, dinosaurs, so on...being huge and getting big, as dinosaurs, galaxies, humans did. And the variety of those, and so on...None of those made any conscious decision of, for example growing a wing in the future, or the shape, or the structure, or the color if it. But yet it did happen.
So there is that thing that drove the making and changing of everything. And that there is no I or you, there is just this thing of making without knowing or being able to direct any of it. And this is the point where the we cant really describe it anymore precisely. Its everything you can not think of. The opposite of what the brain is capable of comprehending.
If I can keep this point of "worldview" so to say, before actually falling asleep, I get the best sleep anyone can wish for.
[1] https://hubblesite.org/contents/media/images/1996/01/385-Ima...