I need that role. In a week I turn out what takes a team several months and many times they've already spent that many trying to show any visible progress.
I've done the impossible since I was in college. Still am. I'm resented by peers. Feared by less competent managers. I can't be controlled.
I have a deep sense of integrity. I refuse to compromise my morals. I will not be forced to implement anything I believe could be used for unethical purposes. I won't bury the truth.
I won't keep my mouth shut if blame is cast inappropriately. I will not see people thrown under the bus. I work too hard. I'm an over achiever. Others start to believe they are looking bad by comparison. I'm held back by them.
I work all night. I get 'er done. I care. I listen. I empathize. I'm hated.
I'm not a team player because I am able to do all the jobs but focus what I do best. I'll help you do your job better but I won't do it for you.
I won't tolerate lies. I have high standards for myself and my team. I won't fall in line.
People assume I'm arrogant but I always under promise and over deliver.
You need to grow up. It’s hurting and will hurt like hell, but it’s the only way. You are not your work, you got that illusion and higher sense of self because you knew that’s the only thing you have to offer, now you’re starting to realize it’s a dead end.
Honestly, it sounds you're both brilliant and a bit lacking in people skills at the same time. Most people are decent and try to do the right thing, so if they do something questionable it's usually because there's another (not-questionable/good) thing that they're trying to achieve. Try to objectively understand people's reasons for doing things before you reach a conclusion about their behavior, it will go a long way in making you feel less alone.
It must hurt to feel so lost and alone. I'm sure what you wrote is an honest description of how you feel, but it's highly biased. Impossible for it not to be, mind you. Without talking to your peers, or watching you interact with them, it's impossible to say if it's actually your IQ that they resent you for, or if there's something else going on. For instance, if EQ is low (compensation for high IQ), then you may not even be able to see hurtful actions that you've taken towards them for which they resent you, rather than jealousy of your brilliance.
But the basic gist is that it sounds like you're not suitable for larger companies at all. You should limit yourself to companies smaller than 50 people.
Look for consulting work or start you own business. If you are difficult and not a team player, you are going to have a hard time in teams regardless of your ninja rockstar abilities. But there are plenty of opportunities for a sole developers where you might thrive.
Have you tried coming down off your high horse in the rarified stratosphere and acted like a normal and humble human being?
Because you are either on a team of retards or you have an unhealthy ego.
In some degree, I believe everyone is in that same boat.
But I think it is unusual to mix your 'morals' with your work. This indicates that you like discussing random stuff with people at work.
I mean, avoiding allocating memory unnecessarily is not related to moral nor ethics.
And you know.. just because you have a moral opinion doesn't mean you MUST point out divergence with others, when they pronounce their world view. I really find it unusual to point out "morals" in a topic like this one.
I've done the impossible since I was in college. Still am. I'm resented by peers. Feared by less competent managers. I can't be controlled.
I have a deep sense of integrity. I refuse to compromise my morals. I will not be forced to implement anything I believe could be used for unethical purposes. I won't bury the truth.
I won't keep my mouth shut if blame is cast inappropriately. I will not see people thrown under the bus. I work too hard. I'm an over achiever. Others start to believe they are looking bad by comparison. I'm held back by them.
I work all night. I get 'er done. I care. I listen. I empathize. I'm hated.
I'm not a team player because I am able to do all the jobs but focus what I do best. I'll help you do your job better but I won't do it for you.
I won't tolerate lies. I have high standards for myself and my team. I won't fall in line.
People assume I'm arrogant but I always under promise and over deliver.
I'm lost.
There is no place for me.
I'm alone.