To echo what other's have said here, it sounds like they have you in a sick system [1] and it's basically abuse. You should talk to your GP; they should be able to get some proper talking therapy/counselling instead of random people on the internet. This will help and is nothing to be ashamed of — I've had it myself.
Also, 17k is a pittance for a qualified developer, which you are. Find some new adventures, you can do it. If where you is is so remote, then move, or commute, or telecommute. Your very resistance to leaving is a sign of the damage they have already done to you.
Also, 17k is a pittance for a qualified developer, which you are. Find some new adventures, you can do it. If where you is is so remote, then move, or commute, or telecommute. Your very resistance to leaving is a sign of the damage they have already done to you.
[1] http://issendai.livejournal.com/572510.html