I'm not religious.
I'm not a Puritan.
I love OSHO books, I've read more than 30 of his books.
I like relativism.
I try to understand the diverse cultures and customs.
I know that I am not the right person, honest and sincere.
Obviously, I have my prejudices, fears, traumas, envy, etc.
I know that right and wrong is very relative, timeless.
In the country where I live (Brazil), many people (majority?) Do not respect the laws of traffic, construction, betrayal, etc.
The level of social corruption is enormous.
I know this is normal all over the world.
But at very different levels.
I know that the fear of being punished by law, or by people is a good reason, to continue (try?) To do the right thing.
But often, I do not find a reason, to continue to do the right thing (try?).
Doing right does not always cost a lot of money, effort, time, patience, etc.
But sometimes, yes.
What motivates you to do the right thing?
Or, you should ask first:
What is right?
How to know or define what is right?
One of the biggest problems, is to feel like a sucker, loser.
This feeling is what bothers me a lot.
Or should I ask, how can I not feel like a sucker, loser?
Would you choose someone you respect? Someone you would not wish to hurt or shame? Would it be someone who brings out the best in yourself? Would you want to earn their respect for yourself?
Would you choose someone who rates people as winners and losers, bosses and suckers? Someone who doesn't care how they make others feel, so long as they're the ones on top? Would you want to earn their approval as another winner on their level?
The choice you make will tell you where your self-respect lies. Look after your self-respect. Other things can disappear from your life, either temporarily or permanently: health, wealth, love, security, friends, luck, dignity, purpose, joy. They're not always in your control. But self-respect is in your own keeping. And it can be enough, by itself, to make you feel that life is still worth living, and that you're glad to be who you are.
Seek Joy. Seek the company of people you admire. You can seek their company through the internet, books and film as much as by actually meeting.
Who are your heroes? Try to keep them, and what's heroic about them, in mind. Recognise they are human too, though.