Everyone is miserable.
Everyone is alone.
Everyone escapes.
But giving up is a fate worse than death in my eyes.
I'm roughly half your age, but I understand, I get it. But don't give up hope.
You can still change, no matter how deep into the darkness you are. You can still be happy. It just takes small steps; the first is to substitute heroin with something less addictive and harmful. It will be difficult, an almost impossible task, but if you have the will to do so, you can. You're cognizant of the fact that you have a problem, so you're already half of the way there.
I disagree re: willpower. I've seen serious junkies hit rock bottom over and over. Go to jail, be homeless, get beat up. And in jail they might talk about getting clean and I think even mean it, but the she gets out and OD's the next day. The brain chemistry is a powerful thing, something society needs to come to terms with -- that for some with addiction, medical, chemical intervention is needed. Having strong willpower to me is like saying someone has a pure soul a hundred years ago. I just don't see the value in the statement.
I'm roughly half your age, but I understand, I get it. But don't give up hope.
You can still change, no matter how deep into the darkness you are. You can still be happy. It just takes small steps; the first is to substitute heroin with something less addictive and harmful. It will be difficult, an almost impossible task, but if you have the will to do so, you can. You're cognizant of the fact that you have a problem, so you're already half of the way there.