Let this be a lesson for you: This is what your comments sound like almost everywhere you post. None of my comments to you are any less insane than the kinds of comments you make almost exclusively. If it really were an issue of responding intellectually, you would have a history of doing so, instead of the drivel you paint across HN. You're pretty clearly trolling; you reap what you sow. Let this serve as a moment of introspection for you. You clearly need it. (And also, I really do mean that things will get better for you. You're young, and it may not seem like it now, but they will.)