Last year around the same time I figured that most of the content we read on social networks could be generated by advanced langage models. I then proceeded to research these models and gathered data on the agents in the various networks.
I stopped sleeping altogether, bought a ton of hardware and became delirious. I have now been diagnosed with bipolar disorder. Some psychiatrists have classified my intuitions about langage models usages as "delirious mania". Some think I'm right - but manic nonetheless.
The way they hijacked the documents folder to sync with a limited space onedrive in a non revertable manner is despicable. The fact that we get only 5Gbs for an OS at this price is a disgusting anti-consumer practice. The way Microsoft keeps pushing this "feature" truly shows how little they care about their users.
I hope NIX platforms finish eating the market share Microsoft has acquired through lock-in and terrible entreprise deals.
I see it now, first force you to use a Microsoft account to sign into your computer, then push the limited storage OneDrive sync as a 'safety'-'backup feature', bonus points for using fear of file loss. Third, once it syncs and there isn't enough space, because of course there isn't, then you push a storage upgrade subscription, and have badges appear all over the whole OS pushing the upsell.
Perpetual revenue stream from your OS install base.
Revise the UX so that anywhere the user chooses an option like "Save As.." they are initially presented with the involuntary OneDrive option(s) and then they are forced to click-through several times to get to the option that will allow saving to local storage.
NIX is not making any strong gains of market share with desktops and laptops. Windows still at around 75%. Looks like it's going to stay that way for years to come.
Arguably, the true challenger is Google, and leveraging Android and their smartphone dominance, to gain market share on laptops. Which would allow Linux to come along for a free ride. But, Google seems to have got sidetracked with Chrome OS and Fuchsia, which are non-threats to Microsoft. Not to mention any deals about "territory" that they may also have with Microsoft.
Apple takes bites at Windows dominance on desktops and laptops, but they are too niche and "elitist" to become common nor can they break Microsoft's hold on businesses and Office product use.
You're medicating for stress and anxiety? That's another common way people start evolving alcoholics. Don't self medicate. It's dangerous and can lead to alcoholism. Far better to seek appropriate care from a professional.
It is very impressive. Personnaly I'm still waiting for the unification of QM and GR. Also the adaptative nanobots that reconfigure our immune systems in real time.
It's just that it's painfully obvious to think this way when your brain is built the right way. Then it's just a matter of having the right environment to unleash your work.
Most people just don't have the brain for it, we're social animals and following the smart ones is much more efficient than having everyone running in their own direction.
Basically we always have the choice of following analogies or building our own knowledge bodies. Building one's knowledge capital takes time and dedicated effort which most people do not have. Once you start building your own, you're only limited by your biology and your environment.
I've dealt with this myself and with my peers over the years. I see a lot of similar statements and will tag on to npwr's since it is close to what I do.
This is mostly in order:
1. No drugs. Booze and pot need to be sidelined while dealing with this. Minimization or stopping caffeine if possible. Don't quite smoking right now.
2. Exercise. Do what you like that can get you into the zone. Try and do it without external inputs like podcasts etc. Let the exercise take over your brain. 3 days a week is minimum. There is a good chance you will want to do more.
3. Sleep. Full sleep for whatever it is for you. I can't sleep 9 hours but 8 is good. This is a personal variable, but you should feel good when you wake up.
4. Talk to a friend. Hangout or call a friend that is low maintenance. You may or may not talk about what's challenging you. Having someone to go back and forth with is a great to get you back to who you are and will give you some perspective directly or indirectly.
5. See someone professionally that can help. There is a lot of science based approaches out there that aren't too far out or just sitting on a couch spending money. Find a councillor that you can say "I want to stop or reduce my meltdowns" and give them a few sessions to do so. It shouldn't be forever. The sessions should be basic and practical. Understanding how your adrenal gland pumps you up just before you have a meltdown is really helpful. How to get out of your head and back to reality - you aren't under mortal danger like your mind is telling you and your body is now in full flight or fight mode. How to you recognize this before it happens and make sure that when it does you have a process to get through it without melting down. It works pretty well within a few sessions.
I've had a lot of good feedback from my colleagues. 1-3 does it for a lot of people. The fact that we are talking in some ways takes it to 4. 5 is a hard step to take as there is a lot of stigma around it, but if you are melting down at work or with your family it is worth it. Work meltdowns suggest that this has gotten out of control.
I suggest to anyone that has been through this with some success to reach out to anyone that they see having similar issues. This has been a real positive as a manager having my own experience to share.
>- An SSRI treatment, because generalized anxiety doesn't usually go away on its own.
I want to add to this a very honest observation:
For many people this is the best path. I see a lot of people often saying they are unnecessary, that natural is best or that they create more problems. But I've realized, for me at least, they are totally necessary. I went off them for about 8 years, thinking natural really is best. All I have to show for it is a lot of white hair from excessive stress. I recently decided to try them again and man for the first time in years I just feel normal. No longer is anxiety the dominating emotion in my head. It's certainly still there-- but I can operate like those around me. I don't get over stressed as easily, and conversations come naturally to me. YMMV but it's worth a shot for some
